I like you so much already that, as soon as you leave, it hits me that maybe I was only dreaming.
Image: The beach on the day you noticed me – December 29, 2017
Dreams of You
Simply Free
I love you for free,
with no agenda or hope,
only because I do.
It’s simple.
Image: The journal where this was inscribed to him – October 2017
No Comparison
1) My first love broke my heart.
2) My true love broke my spirit.
…
?) But one day you will hold those pieces until they’re healed and I will call you my only love.
Image: Abondonded boats on the side of the road – California – August 2014
Strangers
You’re finally a stranger to me. When we pass in the halls my mind is confused to see a man I knew, but no longer do. Your new girl walks in and I refuse to watch. As much as you’re a stranger to me, I cannot bear to see you two. It would haunt me endlessly to think I’m a stranger to you.
Image: When he wanted to marry me – Naples, FL – June 2015
Wrong Lifetime
A love like ours never dies. Maybe it wasn’t meant for this lifetime, but it will last throughout it nonetheless.
I wish you the best as you try to forget.
Image: Looking out of a castle in Uruguay – April 8, 2017
Beyond His Actions
Make me brave,
Make me strong,
Make me love
Even when I’m wronged.
Image: Sailboat during a ferry ride in Washington – May 9, 2017
Short Answers
People ask me how I’m doing and I want to tell them the truth, but I’m learning that very few want to hear about the pains of last night or the contemplations of this morning.
So I’ll try to come up with a small fact about my week to satiate your need to ask, but your apathy to know.
Image: Amtrak from Seattle to Portland, OR – May 11, 2017
Promise Recalled
He gave me his word and I thought he’d show up, but when another girl called his word fell forgotten. When he asks how he can make it up, what can I say? Because now I know that she is first, and his word is second.
Image: Streets of Montevideo, Uruguay – April 7, 2017
Worst Way
So many ways this could have gone.
This is good in the worst way.
Image: Exploring with him on our road trip back from NC – March 31, 2016
Never Prayed
I miss you every day. And time will never erase my love for you.
But you leaving was the answer to a prayer I never dared to pray.
Do not misunderstand me. I still could never ask God to do what He’s done, but I look back in my journal and read the questions I wrestled with and I am grateful He saw it as good to bring us away and provide answers to our souls. There are some answers we could never have given each other.
Image: Walking with him in Savannah, GA – March 31, 2016