from mine to yours
I miss you every day. And time will never erase my love for you.
But you leaving was the answer to a prayer I never dared to pray.
Do not misunderstand me. I still could never ask God to do what He’s done, but I look back in my journal and read the questions I wrestled with and I am grateful He saw it as good to bring us away and provide answers to our souls. There are some answers we could never have given each other.
Image: Walking with him in Savannah, GA – March 31, 2016
So many choices to make. So many things I’m still unsure of. I keep asking people for advice and help, yet every time — their responses never answer and — empty I walk away.
Because I’m asking them for answers to questions You’ve never let them hear.
They know my words, but my question has been veiled. You keep it from them knowing an answer weighs more depending on the source. You want to be both my Answerer and my Answer.
“So the Lord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord?” – Exodus 4:11 NKJV
“They have ears, but they do not hear..” (speaking of idols) – Psalm 135:17 NKJV
“To You I will cry, O Lord my Rock: Do not be silent to me, Lest, if You are silent to me, I become like those who go down to the pit.”- Psalm 28:1 NKJV
Image: Powell’s Bookstore in Portland, OR – May 13, 2017
I remember what it’s like in Your presence. The memories are faint, but withstanding. Lord, help me want You more than my fears allow.