What I Learned Today at Counseling

I CRAVE PROTECTION. It’s makes top three on my list, without a doubt. Right behind being a Christian and being male. I’m sure it’s important to anyone (and probably especially to women), but I’m learning how crucial it is to me.
Since a lot of my life was spent acting the adult and taking care of my family members or friends, being a protector is rooted deeply within me. I love doing it and wouldn’t know how to being any other way, but it’s exhausting when you’re the strongest, scariest person you know. It’s hard to be weak when you’re afraid there’s no one who can be strong enough for you to crumble.

STABLE TURNS STALE. We all want to “marry our best friend,” but maybe we should be pickier when giving out that title. What makes someone your best friend? It should be more than comfort, ease, stability … it should be someone stronger, smarter, wiser, and maybe even someone who disagrees… *gasp*

BE STUBBORN, DON’T SETTLE. God made me like no other. Weird in all the right ways. And as much as I believe that, I doubt that He has also made someone perfectly suited for my weird. But DT is right when she says that God is big enough to do just that. He made me & my spouse with the other in mind. It’s unbelievable but I hope it sets in. There’s someone out there that will make my heart smile once again.

DAILY PROVISION. One day there will be a man that can protect and unconditionally love all of my crazy, but in my singleness I still have the Lord. It’s not as tangible and I have my hurts there, but He is good and He is the best man for the job. In His wisdom there is silence, and in the providing there is waiting. He gives us daily manna so that we always have what we need when we need it.

I’m so grateful for counseling. It challenges my thinking and allows me to be weak. I’m am blessed to have this in my life, exactly when I needed it.